今天搞定了所有签字，交了 thesis proposal 的申请表，现在计划的 proposal date 是5月21号，咳咳，我现在还没开始写proposal哪。标题才刚决定没几天，写了个abstract。虽然写个10几页就行了，可是还是紧张啊。我大概还有两到三周的时间，咳咳，希望不要太懒。晾一下现在定的标题好了：Search for Exotic Superfluid States through Ultracold Fermions -_-。当然最要命的问题是其中要搞的一个理论方向我现在还是不懂啊，啊啊啊。Anyway，反正也就这样了。

这两天在听我最热爱的乐队 Of Montreal 的新EP，有首9分多钟的长歌，挺不错。和其他多数歌词长的歌不一样，它的曲调并不是简单重复，也是在大跳跃的，像是两三首呼应的小歌并在一起似的。其实 Of Montreal 的很多专辑都可以从头到尾连在一起当首大歌听的。反正，我觉得这歌不错。

Of Montreal – No Conclusion

Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself
Tonight I feel like I should just destroy myself
Tonight I feel like I should just explode myself

There’s someone calling my name
But there’s nothing to respond
I lost so much in our collapse
Man, my little hope is gone

The voice said don’t worry friend
The darkness is just a suggestion
Oh don’t worry kid
This darkeness is just a suggestion
Oh don’t worry Kevin

I’m allergic to the world when we’re separated
There’s nothing in my heart that’s worth the beating
Feeling like a styrofoam prop
Ennui is eating
I’m sure we talk and talk
But nothing worth repeating
I feel defeated

Now I’m O.D.ing on your cocksucker blues
You make me uptight
When you just don’t work right
You painted my prison now something’s wrong
And I never ever wanted to write this song

I’m killing myself but it’s not suicide
I’m killing myself
I’m killing myself but it’s not suicide
I’m killing myself
And my friends will never know
Because I’ve never been
Because I’ve never been honest with anyone

Always pulling faces from the unreposessing places of the universal mind
I’m crippled by the world when we’re divided
There’s nothing in my heart that’s worth the clicking
Feeling like a Pamplona bull that’s finished kicking

Although we try to break the loop
It’s always stuck repeating
I feel defeated

Now I’m O.D.ing on your cocksucker blues
You make me uptight
When you just don’t work right
You painted my prison now something’s wrong

And I never ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along
But it’s hopeless

And i never ever wanted to write this song
I always thought things would change somehow
And we would start getting along
But it’s hopeless